The energies continue to ebb and flow around us through a lot of chaos. I heard that this year will continue to bring chaos, so we might want to start bracing ourselves!
It doesn’t have to be bad though. If we unplug from the external world of fear-fueled media to whatever extent feels right, we can begin to call upon higher sources of love to help us rise above the craziness.
I have been doing that recently and some magical things have been happening. So much of what can block us from receiving the guidance our loving spiritual guides and angels (and Ascended Masters) have for us is from the lower self, the protective ego. It can take some real inner work to clear away the gunk so we can really listen to the voice of our heart, of our higher self.
I have been doing a lot of reflecting on myself recently, understanding more of who I am. In the 9-month Hypnotherapy Certification Program I taught this past Monday, we focused on parts therapy (a form of hypnotherapy), on helping integrating varying parts (especially the “resisting” part) to become our highest and best self. It’s very powerful.
Like so many of us, I have learned that I have two parts to who I am – a sweet and loving side, and a fierce warrior side too. Recently in my Akashic Records, I was reminded that I am the archetype of a “peaceful warrior”!
How do we integrate varying parts of ourselves, including those we aren’t proud of?
So many of us look at ourselves and want to be good people but worry that we haven’t always done good things. We regret choices we made in the past, but often the pain of wondering if we are bad (which of course we aren’t) prevents us from actually processing the feelings attached to these experiences.
The truth is, we are all doing the best we can in each moment.
The goal of each lifetime is that we learn and grow from mistakes. What we don’t want to do is believe that we are just fundamentally bad/wrong, as that can just make us feel really rotten about ourselves and stunt our growth.
Here’s a few things about myself that I am going to share with you so you can see that there are things I have done that I am not proud of, as well as things I am proud of.
I have learned to forgive myself for these things.
I got suspended from school in 8th grade for a day for having a sip of alcohol with other kids on the way to a school dance.
I had a few interactions with the police in high school – one I was taken home in the back of a police car for getting busted at a party (and another time in a police boat). Another time for jumping off a bridge with friends.
I was state champion in the 200 meter dash in track and co-captain of my soccer team that won the state championships as well.
I grew up without a TV, which I was very embarrassed about, and felt different from other kids. I really didn’t like being different!
I was shy as a kid and was called a teacher’s pet and goody goody by my friends. I later rebelled and did “bad things” (more on that below) to prove that I wasn’t just a one-sided person.
My boyfriend in college of 4 years became addicted to cocaine and heroin. I had no idea about how to deal with addiction. I thought I was HIV-positive for a week and was convinced I was going to die (thankfully I wasn’t).
A later boyfriend became physically abusive to me. I moved to Mexico to teach English in part to get away from him (it worked).
My husband and I once bribed our way across the border from Mexico to Belize with $60 and a case of beer.
I almost got mugged three times – once in France, once in Senegal and once in Paris.
I chased a guy through a parking lot in Senegal who had stolen my friend’s glasses. We got them back when the police beat him up in front of us (much to our horror).
I once slept overnight on a bench on the border between Senegal and Guinea in West Africa. A woman invited me to sleep in her hut (she was going to give me her bed and she would sleep on the floor). I sat with her but wouldn’t take her bed.
Well that was fun! There’s more I could share but I think that’s enough for now. We all have many parts to who we are. Once we can love all our parts, we will find peace!
In the meantime, we move forward, noticing the flow and where we are being guided. I am really excited to start a new Intuitive Guide Certificate Program next week with a lovely group of brave souls. Teaching and walking alongside others who are learning to step out and be of service to others is what truly brings me joy. Such a blessing and an honor.
Wishing you a time of gentleness, self-forgiveness and love for your whole self.
by Heart Light Digital