As I begin to emerge from my self-imposed cocoon, I thought I’d reach out and share a few thoughts with you.
These past few months have been challenging to say the least for many of us. We are breaking so many patterns and lots of painful experiences are occurring in the process, along with moments of grace, gratitude and joy. That’s certainly been the case for me.
I have been changing in deep ways. At one point, I wasn’t even sure if I was going to continue in this spiritual work at all.
But, I love it. It’s my purpose to be of service and delving into the subconscious and superconscious minds fascinates me.
Yet, I am finding that I need and want to shift the way I am of service. In this email, and probably in a few coming up, I’ll share more of my personal experiences in the hopes that you reading this might find a connection with your own life that can support you.
I have been going deep within to look at what patterns I might want to break in my life, and how to do that. One of the things that I have battled with is the subconscious belief that I always needed to do and be MORE. That it was never enough. This led to a bit of “workaholicism”, and sapped me of joy.
I realized that for a long time I have been putting other people’s needs (my children, clients) before my own.
I am learning to change this… to care for myself while also caring for others. Seeking balance… the yin and the yang.
For me, this is about breaking past life patterns where I worked myself to death essentially (or my husband) – once as a farmer, another as a villager, another as a blacksmith’s wife.
I have been doing this by really trying to be aware in each moment of my thoughts, of my reactions to various situations, and of the beliefs that generate my thoughts. I am actually really proud of how much progress I have made in feeling like I have broken some longstanding patterns already. And yet, it’s been one of the most difficult times of my life.
One of the things I have been doing is deep prayer and lots of time in nature. Witnessing the glory of God in each and every flower and the perfect symmetry of petals, and the birdsong that uplifts the air with its innocence and joy, and the abundance of greenery in trees, for instance, reminds me of the expression of the Creator, of eternal Light, in Every Thing.
It’s said that the moment of creation of life, the Big Bang one could say, was about a spark of Light (God) that wanted to know itself, and so it expanded into many points of light, and found form in various forms (such as the human body) to experience deeper parts of itself.
Sometimes I just want to sit and marvel at the incredible blessing that life is, and just do that, all the time.
But on Earth we are here in human form to learn lessons, to improve through each lifetime, through our choices and our actions. So taking action is essential in our learning.
Sometimes that action is just silent contemplation and unplugging from the world.
I believe I will continue to do this, and to operate in this work in a different way.
Every step of this path of deeper spirituality and trusting my intuition to guide me is a dance. I certainly haven’t figured it out, but I have reached a place that feels like peace… moving away from fear.
I hope and pray for the same for you. If you’d like support doing this, you are always welcome to have a session with me, or to check out my book, Tools for the Awakening Soul, which offers lots of ideas on how to move into these higher states of consciousness (in my view at least).
Either way, I am thinking of you all, and hoping that you find the light as we move through these challenging, life-changing times.
And by the way, remember that the truth will never be found in what we read/hear in the media. There’s many half-truths and illusions. It’s impossible to know what’s really going on and who to trust. For me, the ultimate source of my truth is my higher guidance (it just can take time to tap into that!).
Wishing you each much love…
